This is a success story.  No, I'm not making any sales yet but I am discovering and implementing new things I've learned in the last year.  Much of this learning began as a result of being in this Membership and having connected with the right people, including Dr. John Benitez, hypnotherapist.  This is my story today...

Thanks Again WA Membership!

Again, I want to thank WA for the wonderful support from the Membership.  I do have special needs and am missing vital components needed for being successful in dealing with any kind of marketing.  Things at Kathy's did get resolved but her boyfriend took advantage of me.  The kind of issues I am dealing with, people with the mind of a pirate (best way to describe it) and not being able to stand up for myself.  It's why I've lost so many jobs and opportunities.  It's way time to find out what is making me so vulnerable and a target for certain people.

Excellence in salesmanship (in any kind of selling and marketing) comes from learning about difficult people and how to get into their subconscious mind.  I not only came to the root of my own difficulties by going on that trip, I now have tools to get the kind of correction I need for myself.

The important thing that came from that trip was that I was forced to face the same fears I had as a child and throughout my adult years.  From here I could plainly see the defects in my own personality.  There is no putting the blame on anyone or anything.  They're by-gone.  I have learned a lot about myself and saw the flaws in action in how I dealt with Mike's hard skepticism about me.

I would not have been able to see any of this had I not been in communications with the right kind of people...here at WA and a small few in my local area.

Why I Can't Relate with My Family Members

I had no social support of any kind from my family.  (Is this surprising???)  They want to love me and have me love them back...but be silent.  Can't do that. It just bottles stuff up.  

I'm not perfect...and will never be...we must strive...

When I was young and didn't watch television anywhere near as much as the rest of my family.  I've always had an inquisitive mind, and explored the world around me.

I'm dead broke, but wealthy inside.  I have to thank the Lord that the pursuit of excellence is for anyone who seeks it.  One of my sisters found the right husband and has learned how to shut out negativity of any kind.  That always included my own social challenges.  My other sister lives with a pirate...and has learned that.  This pursuit has taken me into some of the strangest places and lived my life in ways that most people won't.  I'm not here to see how "good" I can get, but how can I equip myself to be an asset to humanity and do what I can to improve lives?

It's these kind of people I've had all kinds of problems dealing with throughout my life due to my tendency to avoid confrontation and ridicule.  My solution has always been to run.  It's deep-seated  but can be corrected. 

This is very serious business because it is exactly why I'm not performing very well with any kind of marketing...any kind of selling myself.  The very sad thing is that I have found everyone in my family with serious issues in their own ways due to our parents.  They affected us each in different ways.

Fear took over in my life and it is how I lost my true identity.  When I had my spirit beat out of me, it snowed me under and I became pretty much useless to most people.  It caused all kinds of other issues in me over time.

Over the last year I have been trying to break this wall down.  I believe once I break through, I won't know what to do with the wide-open spaces.  Surely I'm trying to replace all this with productive things.

Today I'm back in Florida, in my camper.  I live very close to my mentor.  I think things will grow from here and the poverty will be a thing of the past as I peel off layers of conditioning.

Had I Not Taken the Road I've Taken...

I could have conformed and did what the rest of my brothers and sisters did, instead of spending my time collecting rocks and minerals and learning about the natural world around me even at six years of age.  I might have been able to have a better relationship with my family...and be just as sociable.  I don't think I was meant to be.

I don't think that was ever my lot.

This road, hard as it has been, leads continually uphill but I'm somewhere near the treeline now.  From here I will be able to see out and over.  As a child I used to climb the mountains in the area where I lived.  I was acting out what I would be doing for the rest of my life.  My imagination has always been my visual experience

Had I not, I probably would have settled for an easy plateau...or worse, the valley, like most people do (even though it doesn't have to be.)  For some time now, even though I've been through some pretty bad stuff, some good came out of it.  I simply can't settle for mediocrity...and wound up in unnatural poverty.  That came from refusing to take my place in the herd.  I would not walk the same way as anyone else...and often walked against it.

In these times, I'm working on turning the poverty into abundance.  My mentors help me keep the right attitude about this kind of growth.  I want to do more than just survive...or even make a good life for myself...I want to help others do it.