I'm posting this because I'm a bit down today.  I"m seeing outcomes of my efforts which are undesired.

I'm not sure if it's how I'm writing or what I'm writing.  The best I can say about it is I'm being myself and not pretending to be anybody else.  I guess that is not always viable.

The same thing I'm seeing here, I'm seeing everywhere.  It matters greatly to me because this is severely interfering with my ability to make money online...or virtually anywhere.

The Million Dollar Grunt

Sometimes I really have to stop and wonder how it is that some of these gurus out there can throw up some really ridiculous e-mail and the followers just eat it up...and the e-mail makes the guru a half a million...or a million at that!

Ever wonder?

The first thing that comes to mind is an e-mail with the subject-line, "Shabambo!"

What's up with that???

It is a total nonsense word but that e-mail created a lot of attention amongst the followers and it continues to pull in hundreds of thousands per month for Tellman Knudson.

My Questions and Advice Goes Unheard

I pour my heart in what I say.  I am my own personality but even here at WA, I leave posts on the Forum.  Why do the threads go dead?

I was once told that the threads run their courses and that's normal.  I can buy that...but so many times, I've gotten into hot discussions and guess what... **POOF!**  We now have a stone monument...

I've a great number of times given new-comers greetings for their arrivals to the Membership and ...silence.  Being the second poster, I've effectively killed their threads just by posting to it...turned what I touched into stone.

I've written posts right here in my blog...lately it's been only..."Post a Comment"  One I wrote a month ago did get a fair amount of responses.  I appreciate it.

That's right...nobody is reading my posts lately.  I realize that some of them do get read, but not lately.

I've left questions in Jay's WABinar thread but they do not get answered most of the time.  I guess they do not deserve the attention as there are more pressing ones presented.  I guess I'm to figure them out for myself.  Oops...a post from Daniel...more babble...next...

It seems to me this is a little more than threads running their courses.  It's almost every time these days...and if someone does post after me, it is in response to one of the other posts above...or just a new contribution.  I can't just talk to be heard.  Won't do that...and that too, becomes too obvious...so I avoid that.

I'm No Guru

That's for sure!  No cough, grunt or silly statement gets me any attention.  Not even the most heart-felt  statements and postings here are getting attention.

Respect must be earned.  I've not yet earned my first penny in that, I guess.

There are people in this Membership that put something out there that is so general...and get a following of 20 or 30...or hundreds of responses...but I get for my best inputs.

I get to wondering...am I that far out there in left field?

Is what I say that irrelevant?

I realize I'm not the only one with this problem.  Thing is, I've heard things said about this member...and that member...being "out there."  I wonder how much of that kind of discussion goes on about me.  I've been to other blogs with posts that get very little or no comments.  Sometimes I post a comment to some of these...because there really is a call for it.

Not only do I want to contribute...I want to help lift spirits...knowing I'm not the only one wearing those shoes.

Why Am I So Concerned About This?

People are people everywhere.  Human nature is human nature in WA and in the entire world.  So the problem must be with me...of course.

The thing of it is...I've experienced this with my submitted articles, my posts here, in the Forum and in this Blog (most of the time with little or no responses to my posts.)

I've been outright told many times throughout my entire life to just sit there and be quiet...I've nothing to contribute.  I've been struggling with this problem my entire life.

Thing is...that has little to offer in the line of making money on the Internet.  Doors close in my face.  They always have.  I've worked with the way I communicate.  I try to be more positive...more charismatic...but it's just coming across as a front and people can see through it as fakery.

So...what does a man do?  I have no answers.  How can I be persuasive and charismatic without being perceived as being a pontificate, libelous and wearing masks?

Am I spinning in the mud, perpetually stuck there?  ...a (God forbid) wannabe?

In spite of all the work I've done in self-improvement, taking advice and implementing it, learning how to be a "people person," learning how to be more persuasive...the song remains the same...

Still an unheard voice out there.  Unheard voices do not make money.  They wallow in mediocrity.

Personality Really Matters In this Industry!

Heart-broken and disillusioned, the cold hard reality of all this is...my work is in vain.  Nobody is listening to me.  God bless the few who have and have said that I've contributed to this Community.  Sometimes I wonder if this is just to make me feel good... encouragement to go on.

Despite what successful people say about being yourself...doing that is not making me any money.  I have a dream life too...but that continues to evade me and stay a dream.

None of this is meant to be negative, though some will see it that way.

Not all personalities make it in the entrepreneurial world...and remain chained to lifestyles they hate being part of.  I do not enjoy living my life on other people's terms.  I had to back off from what I was doing.  Even at full force, giving my entire days to Internet marketing, it availed very little for me.

I'm back in a day job and most of my time is now dedicated to that.

"Stop Trading Your Time for Money"

Yes...we've all heard statements like this.  Very successful people say this in their e-mails and publications...and the following is great...

Daniel says it and guess what?

Daniel is being negative again!  So what gives here?  This is yet another heart-felt post.  Will it be yet another non-read one?  

I get two days off from work per week.  Unlike most people who get weekends, I get one in the middle of the week and one on Sunday.  Today is supposed to be one of those days, but guess what?  In spite of my plans, I've been called into work.  Gotta go and abandon my plans.

It's cold out today...I knew this was to happen.  My plans were to work inside my warm camper today until it warmed up outside.  No, it's not cold to many in the US with the severe winter weather occurring in places and sub-zero temps, but for Florida...it is cold...and instead of the warmth, I've got to get on my bicycle early in the morning before the temperature begins to climb, and wash cars.

That's not living life on my own terms.  No, it's not for the whole day, but it does cut my day up.

Don't get me wrong here.  I'm grateful I'm getting some sort of income.  My plans are to work towards saving up for a yearly subscription here.

Are their some people who shudder at that?  Oh no!  Daniel for an entire year???

I would not like to think so.  What does that matter to me if some would shudder?  For me it's an investment.

I'm not Jay...or Marcus...or Kyle...or Carson...nor any of the others here who say something in passing...and get huge followings.  I've not become proficient enough...or my personality is driving people off.

I can't help but wonder about life sometimes.  Is it my lot to be a nobody...a loser...for the rest of my life?

That has been my battle in life for many many years.  I had hoped that being here would help me improve and some of the success rub off on me.

...but I suppose oil and water do not mix. Not trying to be negative here, once again...just venting about a problem I see and looking for answers.  My livelihood depends on it!  As long as this persists, I'm trapped in a life of mediocrity and success continues to evade me.  It remains a pipe dream.