I want to thank everyone here who has been supportive. I'm sorry folks. This post concerns replies I get sometimes from a certain individual. I chose to remove the more details that were here about it.

I don't always take very well to joking. It's fine when delivered on occasion, but it begins to show a bit of ridicule, that is sore spot in me.

Yes folks, though I'm not a qualifying candidate to joke (because I can't do this without it backfiring, getting into trouble, and I look like the fool,) so I don't joke...at least not to people who I don't know or don't know very well.

Some people are bold to do that. Some probe others by joking. Some people joke at some of the things I say and I try to express myself without making an ass of myself doing it. (Yes, this is a challenge...even for the best of writers)

Again, I'm cordially thankful to all the people here who have been by my side and at times, I, myself, have let you all down because of my inability to stay focused and be able to slide into the common discussions here.

I must always look back and deem myself so thankful that, so far, I have not had to return to a life of homelessness, even though I'm technically homeless. I do not have the kind of relationships that most homeless people have...I've chosen some time ago, to stick with people with minds that grow, encourage, are positive, truthful and honest, who look up wards instead of downwards in spite of current conditions.

I do have my on-times and my off-times. Hey folks, I admit...I'm not right up there at the the top of the social monarchy. I have a lot of personality issues. Most people like myself wouldn't even be in a place like this. I've been a handful here at times. It's all part of my idiosyncrasies the deep feeling inside of me that has been the drive behind me.

It's a long discourse about this issue and myself. All I ask...if you want to talk to me. I'm all open about it. If you are going to leave snide remarks each time you reply here, don't

Please.

It wastes my energy that much more and, though I've been through some really awful times in my life, I ask that...if you want to be nice to me...all well and good. I reciprocate the best ways that I can.

It comes in waves for me. Life goes up and down like a yo-yo. I don't like. Many of us here wouldn't like it. But it happens to some of us who are trying to catch up to where we need to be in life. My battles are different than yours...and for you to see me fall, get up, fall, get up fall, etc...

Don't laugh. False security is a bad thing. For you who have nothing better to do than to exonerate your friends, but poke jokes at things they perceive as corny, each time I put something here, all I ask of you is...

Don't.

These are my feelings. I know humor is a part of socialization, but ridicule does its part in tearing down. For those who do this...does it feel good when something you've said has caused another to give up and lose out? Yes, we do have that bloodthirstiness inside of us that can be left unchecked. Most people bemoan others who fall.

Others like to laugh at them. Bad for them they have such an elevated view on life for their fall would hurt worse than mine own.

For you who marked up my blog with your snideness, taken off. There is only one individual here. No discussions on who this is please.