A Rant: So you were warned...

What's been happening here is incredibly exciting! I have never had the feelings of sheer excitement up to the last webinar. Really, it is much like finding lost treasure.

However things on the other side are getting equally-screwed up.

My scooter broke. Had to push it all the way home. It happened at a time when I happen to be broke.

I've been having no end of trouble with my phone (magicJack) Don't get it! It's nothing but trouble.

One of my bank accounts (the one I have created for my online endeavours.) is negative. They have been charging me for every paper mailing they've sent me. Of course, this had to come about just after the motorbike broke.

Landlord Does Recognize the Potential, but Thinks I'm Lazy

My landlord had declared that if it is a personal problem, not to come to him about it...that is, using his phone, being taken here or there to get the bike fixed...it's all on me. He calls me an "enabler." I realize we do have to be responsible, but until sales here go faster than they have, I'm not out of the woods for needing help. They're not about to wait around for success to come for me online.

I have been working very hard on articles and everything else that would help me be more helpful to the online community...including WA of course. In spite of the output of good articles, it has always and still does take more time than it probably needs to, but I have not mastered that.

It just seems the better things look with online endeavours, the more contrary things outside get. Trials they are for sure.

Crankcase Digests Belt & My Valuable Time

I've taken the bike apart and found a shredded drive belt inside the crankcase. There is just enough information on the belt to tantalize! The motorbike model is not identifiable. What little bit still on the belt for information can't be tracked. I spent two hours today trying to find information on the WWW. Nothing for this bike.

All the bike shops are not in walking distance. Bicycling to the closest one does not guarantee I'm going to come home with a belt. It's going to take the afternoon to do this. [added research reveals that any Chinese motorbike with ten-inch wheels, four stroke and 50cc, take the same belt! I wonder how accurate that is...couldn't be that easy... If so, belt part # = 1669-18-30

Meanwhile, before I get charged again for paper mail from the bank...because the information they gave me is bogus. I have to go back there again ...or find a telephone to call them.

Yesterday, I was approached about a minimum wage job that I'm expected to look into and start working. It is a full-time labor-intensive. If I don't look into this job, it's just going to show ingratitude on my part and I would be refused anymore help from anyone in the community around here if I need it.

Also, yesterday, I took the curtain off the window because it needs cleaning. I'm in plain sight in front of this computer. My landlord came up to the window last evening with a wry grin on his face, there I am sitting in front of the computer in plain sight. After sneering, asking what I was doing, told me to get off the computer and get a life. He has been harping about this for the last month ...

I covered the window with a towel...now that looks tacky to him, more like ghetto-people and the way they live ...and just another indication of my apparent slothfulness.

I don't blame my landlord in any way. I've been having issues all my life and one day he's going to see what WA has done for me by providing the tools and supports to get out of this chronic mess.

• I've been kicked out of the homes of my brothers and sisters. Kicked out several times from my mother's when I was young.
• I've been run off in Ohio because of nosy neighbors who hate people sitting in front of computers all day.
• I'm being told how stubborn and lazy I am today...and that had better change...
• I've been run off from jobs, fired, or quit because I just could not stand it. I've had some-odd 40 jobs since high school. I can't stand being owned.

Why? It so happens I just don't think the same way most people do. There is all indication that the way I am going will eventually lead to being able to prove that I know what I'm doing.

I wanted to write all day today to try to get back on schedule, but once again, I'm being taken away from what I want to do because if I refuse that job, or do not take the effort, whatever that is, to get the motorbike back in running order and out working for some company.

I'm being picked up tomorrow morning to be taken to work even if I don't get the bike fixed in time.

Nice articles and the wonderful comments I get from millionaires and fellow members alike, mean nothing to folks outside. There's a lot of distrust, as Jay said at one time, "Consumer distrust comes with Internet marketing and that's just part of the playing field." This is not verbatim.

As for the job, tomorrow's is a temporary one, but I'm being fixed up for another one like some well-meaning folks might fix someone up with a girl (or boy) friend. I have until September to make something happen here as this is when I'm to apply to that job.

I've talked about the positive things that have been taking place for me at WA and SA, ...and a couple small sales to show for, but...

"All Well and Good...but Don't You Think You Need a Job First?"

I am ever so grateful there is a place where folks think along the same lines as I do. Nobody "out here" can see just what I'm seeing...and, of course, I'm being "stubborn," I have no other problems except "laziness." I'm getting the "I tried to help you and you refused my advice, so you're on your own."

It has gotten so gosh darn close this time around. There is no way I will be able to perform as I have been lately here if I have to be messing around with wage labor...which will keep me just above water to breathe.

It is no wonder I get so spun-up. I'm trying to go as fast as I can in spite of people telling me I'm in front of the computer way too long, to not have employment become expedient, trapping me in that hogwash. That kind of lifestyle and I do not mix ...never has. It's prison to me.

I have a nice schedule set up. It took me awhile to put it together...Working in a job is going completely fill that schedule with that. I still have my other obligations which need to be done around commuting to and from work, and working itself. Yes, I will be able to pay my way around with no problem again, but it is at the expense of my time. Once again...trading time for dollars! Uuugh!

With the excitement that comes from here, I now have great anxiety because this employment junk has reared its ugly head again and is right in my face. As for Internet marketing, this year has pretty much been a renaissance for me.

[This was edited to help bring more positive elements I felt belong here.]