Internet marketing has forced me to make lots of changes in how I think and bending my hardened thinking process takes a lot of energy. Age teaches some difficult lessons and caution and reason override most everything that I do. I've been run over a lot and quite honestly I recognize that I have built a safety net around me that gets me through the world pretty smoothly. My rat like activity has suddenly become a hindrance. The maze that I have memorized effectively gets me to the piece of cheese and as a consequence I have no need to think beyond that.

This marketing course has been an interesting wake up call for me. I can not succeed no matter how hard I try if I limit myself to what I think I know. My way of thinking is a trap that I have had a hard time of disentangling from. I can not move carefully, work hard, avoid conflict, get along with every one and pick up my check every week. To succeed in this business you have to shout as loud as you can. You have to use the tools that trigger people to buy and that means understanding the "why" that motivates people. It means that my conscience needs to get out of the way and I had better stop writing to much "good" content because people have already made up their minds when they go to buy and just want their decision reinforced. The better you make it sound the more likely they are to click on your link. Who cares if its a crock of processed hay? Goes against my grain. I believe people use their higher brain but I am wrong. The six senses and the seven deadly sins drive and motivate buyers by and large. Nothing more. Nothing less. Pretty much the same as ever.

One of the things that I find fascinating is that the number of people who buy on the premise of improving their lives will never use what they buy because the application requires effort or focus. I'm cheap. I bought the wealthy affiliate membership because experience has taught me that if something is to good to be true, it generally is. I wanted to learn the facts and make an intelligent decision about pursuing all of those tasty online offers. Which ones work, which ones don't. Yup. I want to get rich quick, not make any effort, and not offend anyone in the process. So here I am, spending more money than I earn trying to unravel the mystery, reshape my life, my thinking, and working as hard as I can to do it.

Yesterday I moved six ton of hay into our tiny little barn. Didn't take as long as some of the articles I write. Why do I keep trying to make this affiliate marketing thing work? I paid for the course, I'm cheap and it seems to be something I can't do. I like challenges and besides I want my money back even if it costs me another half a million dollars. Make way for one more success in the affiliate marketing world. I'm crowding my way in.