I am not really quitting but just when I was feeling like I was making progress I feel like I am getting kicked in the teeth. Just as things seemed to be going well my hubby is all over me to get a real job. I am rethinking my approach here right now.

First I am going to check out elance and odesk and see if there are jobs that I can do because I really don't want to just get any old job and I don't want it to interfere with the dance lessons I have already paid well in advance for.

I have been on the verge of tears the last few hours because this is always an issue with us. I don't think any job will actually make him happy that is why I was so determined to make a go of this type of work. He seems to want me to keep the house clean, keep the yard up, handle all of the household responsibilities except taking the trash out and walking the dog and make money.

Let us not forget that he wants me to be ready to go anywhere at the spur of the moment and he would really like it if I do not get fat again. Maybe I should create a website just to rant about unreasonable expectations from husbands.

So here is the sad deal I am going to have to look really hard for any job that will fit the hours that I have available and then use my free time to clean, budget and pay bills, work on IM, work on the yard and garden and.....well everything else that needs to be done here.

I think he forgets that we have been through this with my many jobs in the past where I work and do everything I can do but then there is something else that makes him unhappy like the house not being clean enough or his favorite pair of work pants can't be washed 3 times a week.

Some days I feel like I can't win. My hubby and I get along great these days as long as we don't talk about my lack of a real job. Any ideas for real jobs I can do at home that pay better than paid to click and mlm sites would be appreciated.

So I am off to look for some gigs online that pay more than a dollar an hour and some part time jobs that fit into the hours that won't make my dance investment a huge waste of money.

Sorry this is a poorly written post as I am angry and all I want to do is break something right now or maybe have a good long cry. One day life is great and everything looks good then the next it is hard to focus on the good or anything for that matter because I am so upset.

Here is the kicker on all of this we have plenty of cash saved for emergencies and we don't ever touch it for any reason that is not urgent. When I say urgent I mean that we have a tree fall on our house or we have a huge car repair bill. I don't ever touch it for these online ventures either. I never ever dig into it and most of the time I ad to it a little each month. So we are not ever broke even if he gets laid off he just wants me to make money and as soon as possible. He only wants me to spend money that I make. He doesn't mind paying all the household bills and for food but he wants me to make all of my spending money.

It really shouldn't be so hard to make a few hundred dollars a month but I am failing at it and I am spending too much to try to make it work. Every dime I have made I have put back into it. I suppose I should stop that so I can at least prove to my hubby I am making progress.

Well there I go again ranting and raving sorry I just needed to get it our somewhere.